“The
two hardest tests on the spiritual road are the patience to wait for
the right moment and the courage not to be disappointed with what we
encounter.”
― Paulo Coelho, Veronika Decides to Die
I had the best summer ever two months ago. After all sleepless nights because of overthinking about my work and the stress,not to mention, I found a major comeback to straighten up and savor every moment of FULL REST, EAT MORE and FULL REST again while it lasts. And when last month gave me the decision to move forward and start looking for a job, I was taken aback. I was intently looking for the confidence I had few years ago in the deepest part of my heart and of my self and I was suddenly came to thinking, "Am I ready to do everything and start all over again?". It made me shiver and I felt the pressure to the idea of great expectations. I can't afford to fail because my dreams are for my family and I'm doing all of these for them. I can't imagine being agitated of what might comes out WORST.
And I PRAY..
Today, I was hired and all PRAYERS have been answered. Monte, my fiance was right. There are things in life that are not intended for me. I wanted to have what I want and do what I feel comfortable of doing and in which I know I'll be better-off with those. And it started to drown my expectations and frustrations began to subdue my positivity when LIFE said "NO". He said TRY LOOKING AT THE BRIGHT SIDE BECAUSE PERHAPS, THAT'S WHAT GOD WANTS YOU TO DO. And I tried.
I always believe that for whatever reasons I am feeling this way, God allowed it to happen because He thinks giving me unmeasurable circumstance would definitely lead me to HIM. And though at times I failed to see the good side, He is always there ready to change the course of the wind and turn my head to the opposite side.
I am delighted. I have been BLESSED. Of course, I feel nervous because new environment and people mean a life to start afresh and prove that they got the right person but I know, my life and those who have done the same, will forever be a living example of those who PATIENTLY WAIT.
Thank you so much for all the people I have encountered in my life because they are my INSPIRATIONS and my DREAM.
— ― Paulo Coelho, Veronika Decides to Die
I had the best summer ever two months ago. After all sleepless nights because of overthinking about my work and the stress,not to mention, I found a major comeback to straighten up and savor every moment of FULL REST, EAT MORE and FULL REST again while it lasts. And when last month gave me the decision to move forward and start looking for a job, I was taken aback. I was intently looking for the confidence I had few years ago in the deepest part of my heart and of my self and I was suddenly came to thinking, "Am I ready to do everything and start all over again?". It made me shiver and I felt the pressure to the idea of great expectations. I can't afford to fail because my dreams are for my family and I'm doing all of these for them. I can't imagine being agitated of what might comes out WORST.
And I PRAY..
Today, I was hired and all PRAYERS have been answered. Monte, my fiance was right. There are things in life that are not intended for me. I wanted to have what I want and do what I feel comfortable of doing and in which I know I'll be better-off with those. And it started to drown my expectations and frustrations began to subdue my positivity when LIFE said "NO". He said TRY LOOKING AT THE BRIGHT SIDE BECAUSE PERHAPS, THAT'S WHAT GOD WANTS YOU TO DO. And I tried.
I always believe that for whatever reasons I am feeling this way, God allowed it to happen because He thinks giving me unmeasurable circumstance would definitely lead me to HIM. And though at times I failed to see the good side, He is always there ready to change the course of the wind and turn my head to the opposite side.
I am delighted. I have been BLESSED. Of course, I feel nervous because new environment and people mean a life to start afresh and prove that they got the right person but I know, my life and those who have done the same, will forever be a living example of those who PATIENTLY WAIT.
Thank you so much for all the people I have encountered in my life because they are my INSPIRATIONS and my DREAM.
feeling blessed.
'Til my next stop!
