August Rush

What happened to you lately? Are there any unfortunate events and twisted turns in your life these past few days or weeks? How about this month or last month? I guess I do have.

This year has been the worst year in my life so far. Not because it's the end of the world or there are a lot of related series of unexplained circumstances and turmoils that are happening in our world and consecutive crimes / killings but because of the worst things happened in my life so far.

This year, I have gone to Bureau of Immigration almost everyday from November 2011 until late June and though I felt really exhausted and annoyed because of the people working in that government office and going there spending money to take a taxi (if there's no van, but of course they give refund for that) and the heat of the sun caused my skin to be tanned and it was always a burden on my part making a follow-up on all the documents that we haven't gotten yet and trying to please people so that they wouldn't get mad at us,prioritize our request and almost every hour if I was there, I ate most of the time, different to my lifestyle if I was inside the academy. Gosh! What a start of the year huh?!

This year, though it's not different compared to the previous work loads and tasks I had last year, I felt that I have to exert more effort being the in-charge of the students - handling the entrance level test, checking the test papers, making of schedule and so on. It was, it is and will always be a nerve-breaking work. Sleepless nights, going home late, doing a lot of pending documents which are over the deadliest deadlines and meeting the expectations they have for you. I will always remember those times when I had to sleep here in CDU ESL to fetch some group of students up at the airport, slept late in the morning (dawn actually) and help them bring their luggage inside their rooms (though I wasn't the one who have to carry), I will always remember those times having a TFT (Task Force Team) making some syllabus, compilations of the new book, research and make some activities for the new curriculum. Those times when I had to stay at the counseling office before Marj and Jean came along and helped Janice to entertain students in changing of schedule. OMG. I did a lot of things this year compared to last year.

This year, I met a lot of students, teachers, friends and new faces and after few months, they're gone. I have fought some of the students who were rude to all the staff and tried to calm down when the "fire meets another fire". This year also, unforgettable memories are still fresh in my mind thinking where all the days gone? In a blink of an eye for a second, everything has passed us by - has passed me by and I wasn't expecting this day would come that I would write something for what happened to me lately.

This month, August, an unexpected chance of my life has come and it has changed my life, my perception and my direction. I have planned for my future of what I wanted it to be and it turned out differently. I haven't expected that my life would lead me to deep realizations and decisions I could have made before if I have known this things would come to me.

I miss them. The students who became my friends. The teachers who became close to me. The first meeting with each other, the bond, the smile, the laughter, the tears, the pat on the shoulder whenever something is wrong, the Hi's and Hello's, the friendship, the jokes, the silly words we say, the holding hands style, the dance, the songs we sing and a simple glance to each other. I miss all of those. But most of all.. the next paragraph. 

Do you believe in LOVE? How far would you go to risk everything to the person you love? Is it really a myth meeting a person by chance and you suddenly fall head over heels with that person? I don't know with that  but for me, seems like an endless cycle of loving and hurting. Endless..

I met a person whom I guess meant a lot to me while he was still here and who means a lot to me more.. NOW. I don't know what gotten into me but all I care about were my feelings and my feelings these days. It is so difficult to cope with him because rules say we couldn't be and I was wondering how on earth I got into this cage without any door to escape to. I have fallen into a deep hole and I couldn't get out..anymore. 

And now, I have to think about my future. What should I choose? NOW - the present or TOMORROW - my future? Is your future safe and secured? Before, I was sure and confident. Now, I was thinking lately about it and I am imagining how will it turn out to be? And I guess, no clue for this.

Anyway, I lay everything to God and He'll decide what's best for me. It's all up to him.

That's why before this month ends, we are in a rush. August RUSH♥

What do you think?

A Letter - From Me, To You.

Revised Letter of Justin Tanga:

To all Teachers in CDU and Batchmates,

Good evening everyone.

How's everything going? I heard that yesterday was a holiday. I wish I were there with you and enjoyed the  holiday together. There are too many holidays in August in the Philippines, right? 5days. haha. In Korea, a terrible strong typhoon is coming. I hope all my family, friends, and schoolmates are safe.

I still miss all of you and the life I had back there. At this moment, I feel like my roommate, Luka, will wake me up tomorrow morning and blame me for not putting out our wastebasket. I feel like I lie down on my bed every after class and say that I won't attend classes. But when I attend my classes, all teachers gladly welcome me with joy.. After finishing my classes, we eat dinner together, chat loudly, and go outside to enjoy our free time like go to shopping malls, play bowling, have a massage, drink too much at Panjachon.. I really miss all of these memories.

During our graduation day, I never expected this time would come.

Anyway, I really appreciate all teachers who taught us, especially my teachers. You always try to listen and help us. I had taken all classes with a happy smile because of you. In my case, I had a terrible speaking skills compared to the areas of reading and listening. However, thanks to you, my speaking skills have gradually improved. Not only me, but everyone might have the same feeling with me. It's mutual. Without your help, we couldn't study well and improve our English skills.

Also, I really appreciate all my schoolmates sharing all the time with me. I know we had a hard time since we had to spend more than 8hours a day studying and doing homework. Despite all difficulties, we survived. And I think we made unforgettable memories. Every weekend, we went out not only because we wanted to enjoy our time and relieve our stress, but also we need to get fresh air and clear our head. We traveled a lot of places, visited almost every attractions. I didn't expect that we could be very close in 2months. Thanks for making unforgettable memories with me.

Lastly, I will never forget those days in CDU and Cebu. I am sure that this experience will be beneficial for our future and will contribute to our success. I really want to keep in touch with all of my teachers and schoolmates. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you and Thank you once again. Best luck to you! :)

Paris, My Love♥

Paris...

My Dream Place. And everybody's dream place. When I was still young, I dreamed of going to far-away places with someone I love. And now. I am 26 years old and that dream still exists in my mind. But my trips somewhere in the Philippines are the first step towards that dream. I really wanted to travel a lot. See a lot of unfamiliar faces. Adapt new culture and meet new faces and friends. It will surely make my life worthwhile.

With Jefferson♥

Last August 25, 2012 Justin (Min Woong Kim) gave me his best buddy in Cebu - Jefferson and because Justin is not here, his substitute is Jefferson. Sometimes, Justin says "I envy him. I will kill him." blah..blah..blah.. kkk

I took these photos because I think we are a great pair -me and Jefferson. Love it..

 I have just woke up this time

 My niece..Empress Melanie "SuySuy"

And indeed, as long as I have Jefferson, my loneliness is gone♥

Sunday Afternoon at SM Mall

When I woke up yesterday afternoon, I realized I have slept for 14 hours after that night that changed my life and broke my heart into thousand pieces. I felt empty. As I woke up, I was looking for Jefferson (the puppy which Justin gave me) and I hugged him and told him that I missed him so much. I don't know what brought that kind of feeling to myself but I was just as glad as anyone could ever be because I knew my life has changed and everything that happened to me is so special other people might not see.

ANyway,  when we went to SM Mall, i treated my mother and brother for snacks and I ate my lunch though it was too late. After, we talked and because there were a lot of people who were there yesterday, we went to see the show they held in Northwing. And to our surprise,we saw a very cute baby girl or boy?? walking along the way and was wearing a very cute costume.

Isn't he/she cute?? I love the bee costume she/he's wearing.

I always wanted to have A baby like him/her. So cute.

A Signature Story!

What is your signature story? Everyone has many stories, however everyone has only one signature story. No one else can tell your signature story the way you do. It is like your writing signature, only you can sign your name that way. The best counterfeiters cannot perfectly duplicate your signature.

Here is a impeccable of my signature story. I used to write anything on the wall that my parents got angry often. I read newspapers, magazines, storybooks and bible story books when I was 7 years old. I learned to cook anything but not those difficult dishes during my elementary years. I watched MTVs and sang a lot of songs early in the morning and my father usually shouted at me because I was too noisy. I massaged my grandmother, father and my aunt often at nighttime. (LOL!..that's why I am good at massaging people). And the most unique story to tell: I daydream a lot. That includes the inverted life I wished, hoped and wanted to have but couldn't have because I am not living in a fantasy world.   

I have met people that perpetuate a story that is not their signature story in their lives and just cannot do what they must do to be happy. Everyone has a story. Get in touch with your real story that shows you can do anything you put your heart and soul to!

The truth sets everyone free to move on with love in their hearts. VERITAS is truth in Latin.

Your real signature story is your life's motivation to do anything you want to do. First you must get in touch with your real story and that should propel you to do bold deeds. Remember everyone has many stories. However everyone only has one signature story. Now are you ready for my real signature story?

My parents were separated. I have 2 twin older sisters and 2 younger brothers. I am staying in my Aunt this time because their house is nearest to the workplace I am working with. I haven't had the happiest childhood days though I can choose some of the memories. I have been to a lot of places but it is not enough because personally, I am a traveler on the other side of my life. My dream is to be a famous writer like Nicholas Sparks, Stephanie Meyer and all. My parents and family trust me a lot because they see me as the most hardworking person in our family, not to mention I am 2nd to my Aunt (in which, indeed, she helped my sisters to finish schooling). My sisters don't have a  good job this time (I don't know why but I think they are still dependent on my family). I had been to a lot of relationships but I guess I haven't found my TRUE LOVE yet. I will pursue my dream to finish my Masteral and Doctoral Degree in Singapore. I don't believe I am beautiful because I know, no one can define beauty well if I, personally don't agree with this.

I tell you this story because you have within you a signature story of accomplishment. Now you must get in touch with the toughest mountain you have ever climbed because if you did it once, you can do it again, and again. No more excuses.

This is my real story and I am sticking with it! I am working in the most terrible company but am enjoying because of the people I am working with. I fall in love with someone but I am committed (I guess!) to someone and we are not totally separated. (Sorry but I know for sure I am totally over him). Did I mention to you that I eat rocky road ice cream? Read books in general? Love to go to Europe? Dream to wear European clothes? Want to have a fairy-tale love and happy-endings story?  And do crazy things most of the time.

And.. the worst personality but the best feeling if you know me?

I love TRULY and I give my all - The best things you see in me - are the best part you will love and fall in love - in me.

Deep Realization - Paradigm Shift

GRUNT-SNIFF-HURRAY!

So many things we take for granted,

Grumbling becoming our everyday portion,

And we GRUNT! GRUNT!

As dissatisfaction pulls its disgusting cords,

And entangles us,

As we GRUNT! GRUNT!,

Selfishness leading us to destruction.

Succeed we may,

Though GRUNT! GRUNT!

But people’s heads - our ladder,

As we GRUNT! GRUNT! along,

And only realize when it’s too late,

And pause our GRUNT! GRUNT!

That time to do what matters is gone,

FOREVER.

And this time SNIFF! SNIIIFF!

No more GRUNT! GRUNT!



In a moment of deep realization,

As you SNIFF! SNIFF!

And you peer through,

As you SNIFF! SNIFF!

A paradigm shift from this rubble of self,

And in a moment

All is still...

Like a prisoner who has taken his freedom for granted,

HURRAY! HURRAY!

MOVE! - No RUN! Oh yes FLY! or HALF-RUN, HALF-FLY!

Home, where you belong.

And HURRAY! HURRAY!

Embrace freedom,

And HURRAY! HURRAY!

Start Livin.

Photos of CDU ESL Center♥ With Our STudents (Aug. 6, 2012)

 Nate, ME and Steve, our new Japanese student

 With Nate (Insu Ahn)

 Chan..he doesn't like to take pictures of us because he hasn't had a shower