CHOOSE!

Which is which?

Fight for your love or set them free?

Which is right?

Forgive and forget or forget then forgive?

What is really right?

I love you because I need you or I need you because I love you?

Should it be?

To see is to believe or believe when you see it?

Does it have to be?

Action speaks louder than words but still words hurt more than action?

Is it?

Love for a reason or the reason is love?

You choose and you know your answers are either right or just a matter of explaining!

Love Of My Life

People always look for the best and when they found it, they just ignore it thinking that they will find much better than that not knowing it was the “best”.

I don’t now exactly how two people from different world with different view of life and personality seemed to clash into one road with so many dreams and goals to accomplish and one of those - to love and find the person whom they can spend the rest of their life with in this uncertain world we’re living in.

I’m not quite sure how our life with the guy I’m with right now have crossed the same road that we’re taking to and met accidentally.

I’m not pretty sure also how we manage to have a healthy “love thingy” in our relationship with my partner, my only love and my langga, Monte.

We became stable last April 9, 2009 and that falls during Holy Week. With those time, I was having formidable decision whether or not if I’m ready to commit myself with another person in another relationship.Thoughts began to sink in my mind as to trusting this person and be with him or should I hide myself and keep myself away from loving again.,

Those thoughts just crossed my mind and I never expect that this guy will give me reasons..to love again after a downfall in my previous relationship.

We are only starting to build our new life together. I keep on thinking where our relationship will lead us and where we will end up. So much wavering thoughts that leads me to confusion and it’s not easy trusting someone whom you think that the person you have right now is as good as you know him and a blessing in your life. And seeing him do the right thing in your relationship is a plus factor in believing that he loves you and you can feel it. I guess that’s enough.

What makes him different from the other guys that I know?

He makes me feel special and important. He loves me in return same as the way that I love him. He makes me feel comfortable whenever I’m with him especially that we worked in the same company and we are group mates, too. He encourages me whenever I feel depressed, bad, frightened, and somehow calms me during those times that I don’t know what to do.

He surprises me with his originality. I can’t forget this date - May 9, 2009. It was our first monthsary. We met at J.Y square and had our lunch at pongko-pongko in front of J.Y Mall. (I insisted that we’re going to eat there during our monthsary. hehe) And after, we walked from J.Y Square Mall going to I.T park although it’s a bit distant but still, we enjoyed it. Then we pass by McDonald’s,sit there and had our dessert, (it was sundae). He is very conscious with his moves and he kept on holding and looking at his cellphone and it seemed that he’s texting with other people and I start to get annoyed because he never told me whom he was texting to and he’s very busy with that.

At first I never notice about the “surprised” thing that he’s going to give me. We sat across to each other and even there’s still a chair beside him, he put his bag next to me. I began wondering why but I just ignore it. And I’m starting to get nervous. I don’t know why, though. And he asked me to get his cellphone inside his bag and I said you get it yourself but he insisted. I opened his bag and my heart began to beat as fast as I could hear it. A colorful box caught my attention but on the second time, I ignore it. And when I handed him the cellphone, he asked me where the message came from. I look down and to my surprised, there was this alarmed message saying “Happy Monthsary Langga” and I keep on laughing because I was touched by his surprise and also by the alarm that never worked out because that’s the thing he’s waiting for but it didn’t ringed that’s why he asked me to get his cellphone inside his bag and he has no choice. That’s his plan. (hehe)

So sweet..

Why do I love him?

His personality bewitched me. It’s very alluring the way he looks at me, his charm amazes me and his smile captivates my senses - my being. Sometimes when his corny - melodramatic - sugary - sickly sweet - mushy actions, I can’t help but fall in his trap of getting my attention. Sometimes, I wonder where on earth does this guy came from. (LOL!)

But honestly speaking, this guy means a lot to me.

We had fun together. We acted as if no one were there. We walked how many kilometers just to explore those places and we find ourselves catching some air and breathes heavily. (whew!)

We talked about our future. Having a house and lot and a car that we can call our own. What are the things we should accomplish before we will get married. Where we’re going to work and live, etc. And I feel so lucky having this guy in my life.

But then, I feel safe whenever I’m with him. Thank you Lord for giving me such a wonderful partner.

Every day is a surprise for me and in our relationship. Whether it goes wrong or right, I know he’s always by my side. And as what he said, if God is with us, who can be against us?

I don’t know what lies ahead of us. What the future has stored in our relationship. But one thing is certain and it will never changed.

I love him now and for always. And I know he do, too.

And if something bad will happen in our relationship, I will still be glad that I’ve met someone like him knowing that I loved him in my own way and he loves me more than words can utter.

Thank you Lord. Thank you, Monte.